What do you do when you question your own art?
Of late, I have been doing a significant amount of "playing" with my new D200, and have shot well over a couple thousand images. I know this isn't much, but it's more than I've ever shot in that short of a period before.
I have reached the point where I feel I don't think I can teach myself too much more about photography and the camera. Of course, by shooting and shooting and shooting, I am still learning more things every day, but I'm getting frustrated by the way some of my images turn out. My colors never seem quite as sharp or fully defined, my focus is always that c-hair off, the composition is good, but not great. Call it a case of my mind's eye far outstripping
my ability to produce the photos I want.
What I really, really want is to speak and possibly assist an experienced photographer, portrait or otherwise, and get some help on some of the basics I've never even approached, like studio photography, flash photography and some long-glass work like sports and wildlife (I worked in a "studio", but it wasn't anything like I would want to do as either a hobby or a profession; it was Sears...).
I don't know how to learn stuff like this on my own, and while I could read every article on the web, it still has a tough time comparing to the experience of a seasoned professional who I can actually speak to.
Another recent development is that I know less and less what
niche I would like to fit in as a photographer. I feel different about it every day. My friends ask me what my goal or dream in life would be, and I tell them I would love to end up as a staff photographer at National Geographic, Time, Mcleans or some other major publication that has a focus on photography. I know these are lofty goals for an amateur, but I was asked what my dreams were, and those are my answers.
I see photographers all over DA who make stunning, wonderful and awe-inspiring photography. Their galleries are filled with images I love and want to know how to create.
I see ^
Davenit's gallery, and want to make colorful, sharp and mentally engaging photos. Photos that make you think and feel very specific things. Photos like:


and
Or I click past ~
roleychiu's page. I see dozens and dozens of images of gorgeous women, but gorgeous women captured in a smooth, carefully considered way that reminds me of every magazine shoot I've ever seen. Images like these two make me wonder if glamour photography is what I want to make my goal:


and
Then I think about documentary photography and photojournalism. I see deviants like `
cweeks and ~
Shankpony make wonderful images of people and things that occur all through our daily lives, and I want to know how to capture the moments they do.


and


are two fine examples.
I don't know. Maybe I'm just depressed and stressed because of exams. Maybe I've got the wrong hobby. Maybe I should keep plugging away and hope I improve with time.
Who knows?
- Nathan Wood
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